When I was in college, right after high school, I officially changed my major 4 times – in the first semester! I had felt that God was calling me into full time ministry, but I wasn’t ready to give up the benefits of living a life for myself.
I knew that living a life in ministry was going to require a certain amount of sacrifice on my part. I knew that riches were certainly not in my future, and things like an expensive new car, luxurious vacations, and a large mansion were not going to be in the cards. The problem was that I had a desire for all those things! I didn’t want to be stuck driving my old Ford Escort. I wanted to be able to travel the world. Yet I knew, deep down, that God was calling me to something more; something deeper and more meaningful than the luxuries of this world.
I know that these are first world problems. In some areas of the world, these things aren’t even dreams for people because they are so far out of reach. I recognize that, and am deeply fortunate. That didn’t change the reality for me, though, that I was giving up the life I had dreamed for myself in the quest of serving God with my whole heart. There are twin parables in Matthew 13 that address this shift in focus and the quest for what matters.
“The Kingdom of Heaven is like a treasure that a man discovered hidden in a field. In his excitement, he hid it again and sold everything he owned to get enough money to buy the field.
“Again, the Kingdom of Heaven is like a merchant on the lookout for choice pearls. Then he discovered a pearl of great value, he sold everything he owned and bought it!
– Matthew 13:44-46 (NLT)
The men in these two parables found something of great worth – Jesus – the Kingdom of God. When they found it, they immediately recognized its worth and gave up all they had in order to acquire it. When I look at my own life, I did give up some of my material dreams for the future, but did I give up ALL that I had in order to follow Jesus?
I think about my day-to-day life and I wonder, am I giving up all that I have in order to serve Jesus in this very minute? Are my thoughts on things of God? Am I sharing my faith with others so that they might know Jesus? Or am I still living for myself?
This question is one that cannot be answered too quickly. It’s easy to say, well, I go to church, tithe, teach, preach, and serve others, so I must be OK, right? But just doing the right things doesn’t mean that I’m living my life sold out for Jesus. It doesn’t mean that I’m giving Jesus 100% of who I am. What parts of me am I holding back?
These parables should cause us all to pause and evaluate our lives and life choices. If our relationship with Jesus is supposed to be the most important thing in our lives, we need to check to make sure that is true. Are you willing to sacrifice ANYTHING for the sake of Jesus? If you can’t answer yes to that question, it’s important that you wrestle with God about that.
What is God calling you to give up or sacrifice for His sake? Are you willing? If not, why not? What has a hold on your life greater than your desire for the Kingdom of God?